shoot mee pleasee.
i dont get how love works, its the most painful yet amazing thing ive ever experienced, sometimes i wanna just give up but then i just cant, its impossible to give up on someone that you care for soo much, but i also believe in this quote one of my friends said to me “no boy is worth your tears, and the one who is wont make you cry” ive been crying alot lately, but even though i wanna go by that quote i just cant, this is killing me slowly, and i dont know how to fix things, i want everything to be like it was last summer, the most perfect guy asked me out in august but im not sure where that guy went, he never used to drink as much as he does and the big drugs are a no no!, i just dont get why things changed…it makes me wonder if i did something wrong to make him the way he is, sometimes i feel like he doesnt even wanna be around me, yea its normal to wanna have time away for a little but not as often as he does, it scares me soo much because i feel like im losing him and i cant fix it, alot has been on my mind lately and i just dont know what to do anymore, and the sad thing is i cant even hold in my tears while writing this, i wanna make things work but im not reeally sure if he feels 100% the same way, falling in love can be the absolute best thing in your life, but at the same time it kills everyone slowly, im not sure what i would do with myself if he left me, and i realllly hope he doesnt, this boy is my world and i dont think he realizes just how much he means to me, but i mean in the end, everything should be okay…right?
